Seeing narnia the musical!

We are in the rose theatre in Nebraska and its so beautiful! We are about to see a musical so I'll blog with a review later!

Makeup Friday

Just makeup I put on myself that I loved!

Thursday- finals

Everyone in my town, who goes to school, is in the middle of taking finals and big tests. Everyone studies till late at night, their stress levels rising with no prevail. All of these grades go on our permanent record, which colleges can see. So these tests are a big deal, especially for me, since I want to go to schools in New York. But a lot of people are stressing out. I saw a girl today crying as she left the guidance counselor's office. Stress levels are at an all time high, and the forecast predicts that they won't go down until winter break. This is the life of a scholar. It is very stressful and sometimes you wonder if it's worth it. Finals and assessments are the scariest thing of school. Which makes it difficult are grades. That's what finals are. I hope you feel lucky.

Wednesday-original piece

I'm grasping
running through
No breathing
No touching
Wondering alone
A creaky rocking chair
A leak by the cellar stairs
An empty home
Bloody cross hairs

Though she be but little she is fierce.

Shakespeare has said this in many of his works. It has always influenced me to leave a mark wherever I go, even if I think it won't matter. Sometimes it helps people. Other times its just a mark. But who knows, maybe I've influenced more people then I think I have. But I guess I'll never know. I like to think that I'm a good fierce loud friend. But I guess I'll never know.

I'm happy i guess.

I guess you could call me happy?

I'm literally emailing you in my 4th hour study hall when I should be doing my math quiz corrections. But I finished all my other homework so I figured it would be okay if I emailed you. You know how I said my Math Teacher was going to yell at me? Well I was correct. She expects me to have time to do quiz corrections, and a long assignment? Who does she think I am? An average teenage girl who talks on the phone all night? No! I have theatre, and then I have to clean the house, and help my mother wrap Christmas presents! And somewhere between now and Wednesday, I have to finish my Christmas package for the Newsies.

Not all of them can go home for Christmas, because they only have one day off- CHRISTMAS!! My poor Newsies! They don't even get to be with their families on Christmas. So I- being the fabulous person I am- am sending each and every member of the cast something.

Monday- Reviewing Skype!

Hey!

Hey guys, it's Madi! So I LOVE SKYPE! I can talk to my international friends on there and it is so easy to download and use!

xoxoxox
Mads

Hey Guys!

I've been really busy! I don't even know what Thursdays are and so u yeah...

GOULDEN BUCKK

Hey Guys!

OMG so today in Economics class, I got a Goulden Buck! Our teacher, Mr. Goulden, gives out "Goulden Bucks" if someone does something REALLY impressive. So it's rare that he gives one out. I feel really special and smart to have received one! I'm in English class, so I gotta go, I'll blog more later!!


xoxoxoxox
Mads

Midnight Ball

Hey Guys!

Its Sunday, which means.. I can post whatever I want! So I'm going to talk about last night... I went to a dance!! So if you know me, you know I'm pretty clumsy, and also quite delirious. Well, I got there, we learned some things about God, (it was a church dance in Cedar Rapids) Then we had Little Cesar's  pizza, and then before I even knew it, it was time for the dance part of the evening. I had NEVER slow danced, and I was REALLY REALLY nervous and anxious for it, but my friend, (who is a guy) asked me to dance at the first slow dance, so he taught me to dance. I picked it up quickly, thanks to him. He was also nice and we talked while we danced. I am in LOVE with this guy. He's just the best, he can make me laugh, sing, dance, live... when all I want to do is be at home and sob. He is unlike any other boy I have had a crush on.. EVER. Everyone close to me says I say that about everyone, but what if I really mean it this time? What if this is the real deal... I guess it doesn't matter, right? He'll leave after his Senior year to go on a two year mission trip, where he'll forget all about me. I had the time of my life last night, dancing with him. He was also my partner for the last slow dance of the night. I don't even know how to feel guys, I just need someone to talk to me about it. He was dancing with me as a friend.  But.. its just so complicated. I see him as an older brother, but also as someone I would date. I love him. I don't want to tell him~ but I do. I've been rejected too many times to count and he means the world to me~ and I don't want to lose the bond I have with him now, I'm really confused. But anywhoooo the dance was fun, and I had a blast.

xoxoxox
Mads

Sara's Trip to Haiti!

Hey guys,

Sara got back from her mission trip to Haiti! Can I just say how proud I am to have her as a friend, we've been through some tough times, (all my fault) but we've left the past behind and became friends once again, and I'm proud of her for traveling to Haiti, and helping to spread God's word all over! Apparently in Haiti, the sun shines warmer than anywhere else, because the tempurature sounds warm over there! I would love to just... LOVE it there. Now all I want to do is write a story set in Haiti, but I don;t know much about it there. Maybe I'll post some tonight. Bye guys! off to an art gallery my work is in!!!

xoxoxo
Mads

Wednesday- Original Writing!

So this is a poem I wrote about "love" I don't believe in it, but this poem voices that I do.

I feel sick and twisted,
but better than ever before.
My heart, yet it races,
quicker than before.
My palms sweaty,
I'm warmer than the sun.
Boys never made me feel this way,
You're the only one.
I see the way you act with me,
you see me as a sister.
But I love you so,
more than the previous mister.

~Madeline Nicol

So yeah.. COMMENT BELOWW!!!

Saturday-School Review!

It's School Review Day!

So! Today I'll review my school week for you!
Monday- I don't remember much about this day except I had fun in Chorus, and I also had a doctors appointment so I missed some school and got to lay down on a couch and talk about my feelings. In the waiting room I actually got REALLY far into my book which is really good, if you want me to do a book talk- type I'll do it tomorrow!
Tuesday- Short day, (at my school we start at 9:45 am on Tuesdays) So it was mostly a good day, I had band and crafts as my every-other day classes, and band went well, we are playing this lovely Beatles medley, and its fun to play and listen to because we know the songs and melodies. Crafts was fun, but I'm not so good at the project we are doing and working on so it was frustrating to that extent of the class.
Wednesday- I don't remember anything about this school day actually!
Thursday- I don't remember XD I should have a journal or something...
Friday- OK, Friday was weird. Everyone wanted me to go to the dance but I couldn't because of my anxiety disorder. It gives me bad thoughts and makes me feel like I have low blood sugar.( I don't but it makes me feel that way.) And I also didn't want to be alone during the slow dances, seeing as my ex-boyfriend was going to be there with his new girlfriend, (whom I disliked before they started dating.) and I really just couldn't handle that. But overall, it was a good day besides that.

So that was my school week, hope I didn't bore you to death!

xoxoxoxo
Mads

Feeling like Bloggin'

Hey Guys!

So I was thinking, and for blogging I wanted to set a goal! Blog at least twice a week! So I thought, but what to blog about? Well, part of that is up to you my dears! So, the part that isn't up to you, is up to me! So I decided that when I post, I will have a schedule.
MONDAY- I will REVIEW something. ex: Crackle nail polish, Slender, Boxxy, Music, Celebrities
TUESDAY- I will EXPLAIN something. ex: Complicated musicals, How shirts work How Tumblr works
WEDNESDAY- I will POST my original writings. ex: a poem, or story
THURSDAY- I will RANDOMLY talk about a big topic. ex: Tumblr, TFIOS, ect.
FRIDAY- I will SHOW you a makeup tutorial that I like! ex: I have no examples yet!
SATURDAY- I will TELL you about my school week! ex: What classes were fun, special events
SUNDAY-I will pick something RANDOM from above!

anyways! So I hope you like my plan, and you can either COMMENT what you want me to REVIEW, EXPLAIN, POST, RANDOMLY, SHOW, TELL or WHATEVER!!!!!!
Anyways, love y'alls!
xoxoxoxo MAds

WELP WORLDD

Hey Guys,
How are we doing? Any loyal followers still here? So I've been thinking a lot about what has been happening to me lately as a challenge. Maybe the whole point is to be as stealthy as can be in life, or maybe modest. Because the world would be quite weird if we were all as loud and unruly as some people are. I think that we should value the quieter people in the world, it's hard to be quiet sometimes. So I've been thinking about being quiet. What if I went mute for a day? Would anyone notice? Am I that loud? Those questions, lead up to my answer, test it out. One of these days, I won't talk. The whole day, no communication, in any way shape or form. I wonder if I could really do this. For those of you who know me, quite well, you know that I am quite the talkative person, especially when anxiety kicks in. It's so hard to stop myself from talking, that it's hard to imagine myself NOT talking at ALL!  I think I'll try this. Who knows, it may be easy and I'm just trying an easy challenge! We'll see my friends, we'll see.  Wait, what about chorus? How will I do chorus without failing?!?!? GAH. Suggestions? I'm not creative ATM, so please give me advice! EEEK! I CANNOT and WILL NOT fail chorus, that is socially UNACCEPTABLE at theatre. It is. It is. I would be an outcast! HALP!! HALP!!!! 

xoxo
Mads

Well Hello There

Hey Guys..

IM BAAAAAAACCCCK.

~MADIKINS <3

The REAL High School Musical.

Hey Guys!
Madi here! I'm sorry for my absence, writing block I guess. So my brother, who is a sophomore in high school, was cast in"All Shook Up", the high school's musical, as Dennis, which is a LEAD role. So that opened on Friday night, and I had to do a clogging performance on Friday night, and my mom went to the musical, while my father came and saw my clogging performance. So anyways, even though it was MY birthday weekend, it ended up being all about how great John was in the musical, and how proud everyone was of him. I felt really selfish thinking that, but I mean, I want attention too! I had just done an AMAZING clogging performance, and it was MY BIRTHDAY weekend. Like where was my attention? My praise? My pride and joy? I felt really unimportant. Oh well.

Hello Everybody!

Hey Guys!
It's Madi, as usual! Sorry I haven't been posting a lot lately, lots of school work to do and keep up on dance and such! But I'm here now! Anyways, so I thought I'd cover a few things today! So, guess what!?!? I got a TUMBLR!!!! I'm not telling you my URL, because like... it's kind of a scary and dark Tumblr compared to some of them. I also have a twitter, @thenextmarylin in case you want to follow me.  So my next project is "Why I like to live." I started this notebook, the inside cover, says:
MY ISSUES
~Anxiety
~Body Image
~Health
~Lying
and then so on the page that says "This journal belongs to: Madi Nicol" under that I wrote:
This journal is full of reasons I need to stay alive, got a problem with that? ~MN

So basically, I remember things I LOVE about being alive. Like New Books, Panic! at the disco, the smell of money, the smell of gas. Little things I can look back on when I'm having a bad day, or I am sick or something.  What do you guys think? What should I add to my journal? COMMENT BELOW!!!!

EEEKKKKKKKKK

O.MMMM.GEEE. I don't remember what this is about. All I know is I couldn't be happier.
Just... Perfect. <3
I couldn't be happier right now.

I don't know what this is, so ahead of time, I'm sorry.

Well. I love me some Friday nights with the gang. Chillin with my homies. Listening to some good music. It's pretty good.  I like kitties, and tumblrrereres. I don't know what I just said. just gonna gO NOW. BUH BYE BLOGGERS.

Xxmads

NEW YEAR! 2013 BABY!

Hey guys!
Happy New Year! 2013 babayyy! Anyways, there is nothing to be happy about, this year is going to be just as shitty as last year, I promise you that much! I only have three very large resolutions,
1. Love unconditionally,
2.Party, unconditionally,
3. Be a better person unconditionally!
Anyways, more later! <3
xxMads